Solitude be the remedy? Nah

"Burn my time and energy, jerks ain’t no friends to me
Solitude be the remedy? Nah
I need love in my life, friends by my side
Live stimulation, banter, conversation
Good vibrations, don’t think I’m asking for much
But these things don’t just fall out the sky"
-Nujabes feat. Apani B-Fly Emcee - Strive

I don't think these lyrics need further explanation.

Hi reader. I've been away for several days now. Away from home and away in thoughts. I've been having some weird bonding with old friends and former lovers. And by weird, I mean it was unexpected. As some know, I'm rarely home these days. I'm almost everyday downtown, meeting up with people, drinking coffee, smoking some potent shit. And it felt good. Why did it feel good? Because I love being around people. Even thou most of them aren't compatible with me, I still enjoy company. And I've been in good mood for days now so it's all good.

I really don't have any definitive thoughts atm because I'm still in the process of waking up and figuring out my day, but I'll try to put some opinions and desires in here for today.

So, what was I saying....ah yes, friendship, love, good vibes. Back in the days (several years ago), there was this......really cool friendship we all had. We used to met up in a park, every night. We drank, we laughed, everyone was good friends with eachother. But then, all of a sudden, it all fell apart. Most of the people spread out into different circles and now they all basically "hate" eachother. Those who left, had to adapt to new circles of friendship. Seeking out an alternative. But nothing will be the same. Maybe that's for the better. Searching for the most compatible circle. That's what I was thinking about 2 days ago. I was returning home, high as a motherfucker, and I started thinking about friend circles. Who's where, relationships, basic friendships, acquaintances, where they all fit in. And now, I'm on a mission to create the perfect circle. A group of friends that are perfectly compatible with each other. It's a hard endeavor, and it will take me years, but I'm sure I can do it.

Anyway, I've been cut of from the world for a while until a week ago. I've wanted to see if isolation and solitude would help me or if I could learn from it. Turns out, solitude isn't for me. What I needed to do is just control the amount of time I give to others, and regulate my own "doing nothing" time. Now everything is a-ok. I've explained to some people that I can't be available 24/7 because I live so fucking far away from the city, and I hope they understand when I say that I can't meet up.

I think you can feel my energy through my words. Right now I'm not feeling so......wordy. I do have a lot to talk about, but I don't think I need to force it out of me if I'm not feeling up to it you know.

What I can do, is give you some songs I made to listen to. Because why not? My songs are basically a reflection of my thoughts made into music. Every sound is symbolic and I'm not into pop genre of music where I make songs for others. I make them to express myself.

Here's the link. Enjoy
http://soundcloud.com/project-sunrise