Saturday, March 9, 2013

I got something to say about dreams

"Once again, now where do I start, dear love
Dumb struck with the pure luck to find you here
Every morn' I awake from a cavernous night,
Sometimes still pondering the previous plight,
Seems life done changed long time no speak,
Nowadays I often forget the day of the week"
Shing02 - Luv(sic) Pt.2



As I awoke this morning I thought: "Damn, those were some pretty intense dreams. Why did I give myself that experience".
It seams that in my dreams I purposely place myself in difficult situations, projecting my secrets onto others and seeing how I'll deal with that situation. I gotta say, it's pretty effective. Since I can only imagine it in real life but the results won't be as vivid because there are no emotional effects, in the dreams it feels too real to deny. Most of the times I just 'pause' the dream and become conscious so I wake up to avoid dealing with that situation, but other times I overcome my challenge and become more confident and sure of myself when the time comes to deal with it in real life.

Dreams are cool aren't they? Think about it. Brain never sleeps. Your body goes into rest mode while your mind gives you all kinds of situations and variations of reality. A small percentage of the time you're conscious about it (some actually never achieve that), being in a state of lucid dreaming. Where you get to manipulate the reality around you to your desire. So in a mater of speaking, you become your own God in dreams.

Nightmares? What about them? Nightmares are your own manifestation of fears. You scare yourself. The sooner you realize that, the better you'll be. I haven't had nightmares in years, because I realize that I'm actually addicted to revealing the unknown instead of being scared by it. Oh, and about those before-mentioned challenges: They aren't nightmares, just uneasy situations that could happen in real life, and I'm not scared by them, just uneasy. But as I solve them one by one,  it's like I get a 'level up' in my psyche.

Dreams sometimes hold a lot of symbolism. Have you ever dreamed something so weird and incomprehensible that you wake up with a 'wtf' look on your face? Only to realize months later what it meant (if you manage to remember it). There are a lot of times where I've dreamed a certain situation, a conversation and an event where it was so vivid, I couldn't make up if it was a dream or a memory. The kicker is that that dream is a future event, and when IT ACTUALLY HAPPENS, you can't explain it to someone because they look at you all crazy like. That's why I tell some of my dreams to people, so that they'd have a hint of things to come before dismissing me as "Dex, you're full of shit, there's no way you could have dreamed that situation". And when it does happen, all they can do is look at me with pale expression on their face and me telling them "I told you so".

I've been trying to do Astral Projection for a while now. AsPro can be best explained as getting in a dream fully awake/conscious. In contrast to lucid dreaming where you become conscious while dreaming. Been reading books, had people walk me through it and generally I know everything there is to know about Projecting. But I can't do it. Why? Because the KEY of projecting is 'letting go'. You have to be perfectly calm and content. My fault is that I become excited seconds before light engulfs me and I start to drift up. I become so excited that my heart starts pounding fast, and I fall into my body. Agh! I must work on my meditation and calmness further. But I'm a restless person. I like to thinker, explore, be excited about the metaphysics part.

Oh. I gotta note that I like hearing about other people's dreams. So if you dream something interesting and weird, don't be shy to hit me up and tell me about it.

I'm gonna finish up for now, and hopefully next time talk a little about the economy, betterment of the environment, social entanglements and those sort of bullshit. I won't complain much, instead give examples how everything could be done better. At least from my perspective, so everyone is welcome to dismiss me and point out where I'm wrong. That's the point isn't it? To get to a place where we can all agree on something and better ourselves.


Welcome to the space between two worlds, the striving for neutrality and inner peace.

First of the 13th

"Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile"
-Charles Chaplin


Hello.
This blog post is the first in the year of 2013 hence the unimaginative title name.
Well, wow, interesting turn of events. Everyone was so hyped about that 21.12.2012 thing. Even me I admit. Most of the people thought the end of the world was coming, like, legit hell on earth. I say those people were bonkers. The end of 2012 symbolized the end of an era, and the beginning of change. Can you not see it's effects? Can you not see people expressing their dissatisfaction more and more with their leaders, their way of life? 
I don't want to get political because it would serve no purpose on this blog. But the fact still stands that 21.12. made people more aware of their surroundings and their state.

I changed plenty since the last time I posted, and I have to admit it's for the better. BUT, as all things in my life it's a double edged sword in fact. I'm grateful for the change, but I inherited new problems with it. Good thing I always have some sort of a positive masochistic view where I still value light more, no matter how much I descend or dwell in darkness.
Let us clarify. When I say 'darkness' I mean the negative emotions and state of mind. Like anger, depression, hate and all those "sins" like greed, lust, etc.

Recently one close friend of mine pointed out over the phone that I sounded dissatisfied with everything in my life and that I shouldn't feel like that. I went on to explain how friends constantly let me down, and that the emotion is solid and based on a fact. We agreed to meet up for coffee and of course I was stood up. My fucking point exactly.

Regardless, I met some new cool people that show potential. I just hope the system doesn't corrupt them much and that they continue to express love and kindness everyday. I will contribute by trying to lift them up as much as I can. Show them the brighter side of life instead of the everyday bullshit with poverty, riots and depression.

Right now it's important for me that I started writing this again and I don't want to blow my load right away in one blog post. So I'll write in small chapters. Hopefully filled with positivity!

Stay vigilant people, and spread some love.