You wanna watch it all fall apart?

"You wanna watch it fall apart
Every time I walk I watch
I look, I notice, I observe
I read the signs
And the signs are pointing in the wrong direction
The signs are not naming the streets
or leading you to the highways
the signs are naming names
tombstones to mark the death of children not even born
and I don't mean abortion I mean what is to come"

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Nujabes - The Sign Feat. Pase Rock

I don't think I could have picked better opening lyrics for this post. So yeah, been a while readers. How are you? You doin' good? (Grammatically it would be correct to say "doing well" but I meant this in a literal sense)

Anyway I once again feel the need to point out why I'm typing in English. It's because I have a much broader English audience than native. Plus, what I 'have to say' is considered more globally than locally.

I said in one of the previous posts that I wouldn't like to get into politics and my opinions about it, but sometimes I can't help it. It's like looking at a downed horse with a broken ankle and just staring at it, not being able to do anything about it yet you want to.

Politics is a very serious subject, and I should leave it to much smarter and determined minds than mine, but instead of just average Joe ramblings I'll try to bring out opinions of how to help instead of bashing and pointing out that everything is -excuse the term- FUCKED.

Today, I was checking out the global news and the report was focused on rapid decline in car sales. Because the sell rates are getting so low most of the car companies are forced to shut down their production and hence fire thousands and thousands of workers. Do you see where this is going? Let's do a simple logical observation.

People don't have money to buy cars -> Car companies fail->Thousands of people get without jobs and hence without money -> That in term means that people will have even less money to spend on commodities -> people don't have money to buy "insert whatever" -> "Whatever" companies fail -> ...
Now, I understand that I'm exaggerating and that it isn't as simple as that because I'm thinking on a smaller scale. But too much shit is going on on a global scale and instead of just getting to the root of problems, most politicians and bankers are focusing on somehow getting that wounded horse to get up and make it run. But it can't. It's already injured, and making it run will only make things worse.

What's the root of problems you wonder? Well.......ourselves. It's not the money, it's not the government, it's not some shadow figure controlling the world. It really is ourselves. We've allowed this to happen and we're still allowing it. Greed, corruption, extreme focus on the monetary system.

Money is just a tool. And we're definitely using it wrong. When the whole point of our society is thinking up ways to get more money out of someone's pocket and thus making them miserable while you get a temporary luxury, you gotta wonder, where is all this going? It's no secret that the 1% of people in the world have unimaginable wealth and they don't do anything to earn it, while MOST people work 9-5 in jobs they hate, making less and less every year. Not to mention the modern slavery problem. Yes, modern slavery is very much real. Very, very much real.

"Conservative estimate is that there are 27 million people in slavery today. This means that there are more people in slavery today than at any other time in human history."

Source: www.freetheslaves.net

Now, I'm not some saint advocate about it. I know you people can't do much, as neither can I, but the important part is that now you are AWARE. That is my contribution at least. I also know that I don't have a broader audience to point this out to, but as they say: "Rome wasn't built in a day".

Have we forgotten how to help each other without money coming to mind? The status quo (you scratch my back, I scratch yours) is long gone. What happened to kindness? What happened to love?

"Dex, you're an idiot. You need to get a job and stop saying those things. Just keep your head down and pray that it will get better" - Something I hear way too often.
First of all I do have a job. Hardworking physical one. Second of all, what is wrong in realizing the problem and trying to figure out a way to fix it, instead of just hopping someone else does? Who's that someone else? Is it you? You reading this right now. Can you fix some things? Didn't think so. You don't want that responsibility. You just wanna go to school/work, come back, play some games, maybe go out, get drunk/high and than do it all over again. Every day, for the rest of your life, until SOMETHING happens. It's relatively 'easy' to get money. It's even easier to spend it. But guess what, you can earn it again. What you can't earn back is TIME. Every day, you're getting closer to death. You're apathetic. Just waiting for your life to end. You don't care about your future. You don't care about your goals anymore. You don't care about some day maybe accidentally forming a family. You don't care in what world your children will grow up in. Or do you? Maybe you're smarter than I thought. Maybe you aren't the consumerist sheep the government and corporations think you are. Maybe somewhere down there in your heart there is still some good in you, willing to help others without asking nothing in return?

I'm not inciting the concept of revolution or protests or whatever. I'm focusing on the fact that you can't help anyone if you can't even help yourself. Be a better person, be kind to others, and make an example in this corrupt broken world that people should look up to you, trying to be more like you.

I figured this is enough text for today, so, until next time, stay safe people, do good.

Welcome to the space between two worlds.

I got something to say about dreams

"Once again, now where do I start, dear love
Dumb struck with the pure luck to find you here
Every morn' I awake from a cavernous night,
Sometimes still pondering the previous plight,
Seems life done changed long time no speak,
Nowadays I often forget the day of the week"
Shing02 - Luv(sic) Pt.2

As I awoke this morning I thought: "Damn, those were some pretty intense dreams. Why did I give myself that experience".

It seams that in my dreams I purposely place myself in difficult situations, projecting my secrets onto others and seeing how I'll deal with that situation. I gotta say, it's pretty effective. Since I can only imagine it in real life but the results won't be as vivid because there are no emotional effects, in the dreams it feels too real to deny. Most of the times I just 'pause' the dream and become conscious so I wake up to avoid dealing with that situation, but other times I overcome my challenge and become more confident and sure of myself when the time comes to deal with it in real life.

Dreams are cool aren't they? Think about it. Brain never sleeps. Your body goes into rest mode while your mind gives you all kinds of situations and variations of reality. A small percentage of the time you're conscious about it (some actually never achieve that), being in a state of lucid dreaming. Where you get to manipulate the reality around you to your desire. So in a mater of speaking, you become your own God in dreams.

Nightmares? What about them? Nightmares are your own manifestation of fears. You scare yourself. The sooner you realize that, the better you'll be. I haven't had nightmares in years, because I realize that I'm actually addicted to revealing the unknown instead of being scared by it. Oh, and about those before-mentioned challenges: They aren't nightmares, just uneasy situations that could happen in real life, and I'm not scared by them, just uneasy. But as I solve them one by one,  it's like I get a 'level up' in my psyche.

Dreams sometimes hold a lot of symbolism. Have you ever dreamed something so weird and incomprehensible that you wake up with a 'wtf' look on your face? Only to realize months later what it meant (if you manage to remember it). There are a lot of times where I've dreamed a certain situation, a conversation and an event where it was so vivid, I couldn't make up if it was a dream or a memory. The kicker is that that dream is a future event, and when IT ACTUALLY HAPPENS, you can't explain it to someone because they look at you all crazy like. That's why I tell some of my dreams to people, so that they'd have a hint of things to come before dismissing me as "Dex, you're full of shit, there's no way you could have dreamed that situation". And when it does happen, all they can do is look at me with pale expression on their face and me telling them "I told you so".

I've been trying to do Astral Projection for a while now. AsPro can be best explained as getting in a dream fully awake/conscious. In contrast to lucid dreaming where you become conscious while dreaming. Been reading books, had people walk me through it and generally I know everything there is to know about Projecting. But I can't do it. Why? Because the KEY of projecting is 'letting go'. You have to be perfectly calm and content. My fault is that I become excited seconds before light engulfs me and I start to drift up. I become so excited that my heart starts pounding fast, and I fall into my body. Agh! I must work on my meditation and calmness further. But I'm a restless person. I like to thinker, explore, be excited about the metaphysics part.

Oh. I gotta note that I like hearing about other people's dreams. So if you dream something interesting and weird, don't be shy to hit me up and tell me about it.

I'm gonna finish up for now, and hopefully next time talk a little about the economy, betterment of the environment, social entanglements and those sort of bullshit. I won't complain much, instead give examples how everything could be done better. At least from my perspective, so everyone is welcome to dismiss me and point out where I'm wrong. That's the point isn't it? To get to a place where we can all agree on something and better ourselves.

Welcome to the space between two worlds, the striving for neutrality and inner peace.

First of the 13th

"Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile"
-Charles Chaplin

Hello.
This blog post is the first in the year of 2013 hence the unimaginative title name.
Well, wow, interesting turn of events. Everyone was so hyped about that 21.12.2012 thing. Even me I admit. Most of the people thought the end of the world was coming, like, legit hell on earth. I say those people were bonkers. The end of 2012 symbolized the end of an era, and the beginning of change. Can you not see it's effects? Can you not see people expressing their dissatisfaction more and more with their leaders, their way of life? 

I don't want to get political because it would serve no purpose on this blog. But the fact still stands that 21.12. made people more aware of their surroundings and their state.

I changed plenty since the last time I posted, and I have to admit it's for the better. BUT, as all things in my life it's a double edged sword in fact. I'm grateful for the change, but I inherited new problems with it. Good thing I always have some sort of a positive masochistic view where I still value light more, no matter how much I descend or dwell in darkness.

Let us clarify. When I say 'darkness' I mean the negative emotions and state of mind. Like anger, depression, hate and all those "sins" like greed, lust, etc.

Recently one close friend of mine pointed out over the phone that I sounded dissatisfied with everything in my life and that I shouldn't feel like that. I went on to explain how friends constantly let me down, and that the emotion is solid and based on a fact. We agreed to meet up for coffee and of course I was stood up. My fucking point exactly.

Regardless, I met some new cool people that show potential. I just hope the system doesn't corrupt them much and that they continue to express love and kindness everyday. I will contribute by trying to lift them up as much as I can. Show them the brighter side of life instead of the everyday bullshit with poverty, riots and depression.

Right now it's important for me that I started writing this again and I don't want to blow my load right away in one blog post. So I'll write in small chapters. Hopefully filled with positivity!

Stay vigilant people, and spread some love.